[pct-l] The insecure way is really the secure way.

[Jeffrey Olson]

Man - that's a heartfelt post.  You're seeing "THE GREAT LIE" - those 
bars.  Most of us grow up in a world accepting what we are told is 
meaningful and purposeful is "T"rue - we really never question to the 
foundation of our own lives.  We're discouraged from doing so, because 
if enough of us did it, there might be great social upheaval.

Most of  us perpetuate the system we know because we're scared to see 
what we "feel" is accurate - that we're living THE GREAT LIE.

It sounds like you've experienced enough outside the LIE to find what 
seems to be  your core.  You're in a good spot - a skill, tools, and 
money to do what you want - for a while.

Campbell's quote mirrors what we know about personal and social change.  
The more uncertainty there is in a system, the more a person/social 
system is ready to change.

You have a great plan!

Jeff
Arcata, CA

On 7/17/2014 3:16 PM, Matthew Edwards wrote:
> The "insecure" way is really the secure way. (Joseph Campbell)
>
> I am on the verge of abandoning my apartment and take to the road in an
> ancient Chevy Blazer with a pop-up camper.
> Long story short, I discovered my boss had committed I'd theft and racked
> up an account in my name.
> I don't use credit so it took me a while to find out.
> There is very little work here and its expensive as hell.
> I am ready to depart for fairer shores.
> All my plumbing tools are loaded and my studio apt is swept clean.
>
> I wrote the following to a total stranger regarding life on the road in an
> rv:
>
> "For some reason when i returned after hiking those 7,500 miles across 22
> states and along the spine of almost every major mountain range in the
> lower 48, for some reason i went right back into my old "secure" habit of
> "needing" a roof above all else.
> I have been miserable from the last day, June 21st 2011, when i completed
> my Triple Crown, until now.
> Huddled up in a 280 sq ft apartment with a lot of nosey neigbors and an
> alcoholic boss.
>
> As if all those days of freedom i spent sleeping on the dirt, living under
> the sun, the moon, thru the rain and over the snow.. as if that meant
> nothing.
>
> I came right back like a good little lad and climbed back into my cage and
> locked the door.
>
> Why?"
>
> Am i crazy?
> I've scared the hell out of all my family members with my idea.
> You people here are the closest thing i have to "understanding" friends.
>
> Without telling me what to do..
> What do you think of a 45 year old plumber with the obvious gaps in
> employment suddenly pulling anchor and hitting the road?
> Bare in mind i have all my tools aboard.
> Am i going to become one of those crazy guys talking to himself and
> collecting aluminum cans at rest stops? (I already talk to myself)
>
> Any thoughts appreciated.
> I haven't given notice to the landlord yet and I've got enough money to do
> anything.. for a little while.
>
> Go ahead and bash me over the head with criticism. I can take it.
>
> Iceaxe (life was so much easier when i couldn't see the bars)
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