[pct-l] Love on the trai

[shutterbugg313 at yahoo.com (Shutterbug steiner)]

I have yet to experience the entire "solo"ness that you speak of but did feel that human need for "social"ness.  I sectioned hike 320 miles southbound in Washington a few weeks ago going "against the grain".  I often would find myself looking around the next switch hoping for that other human being.  And when I ran into someone else I found myself to be very "chatty."  And I am not normally a chatty person.  I observed the "community/tribe/clan" of the many groups of PCT thruer that I passed and had a longing to "belong".  But I chose the same path just but the wrong direction.  I noticed many would inquire of where their friends were - asking me if I saw so and so.  They wanted to connect and be social be a part of the group.  I observed the desperation of one individual who "lost his group" and was anxious enough to find them again that he claimed he would hike until midnight to find them -- sorry to say that they were just behind him trying to catch him and bring him back into the
 "fold."
 
Next year when I section hike again I will probably go North Bound and see if I can hook up with a tribe/clan so that I can experience that more fully.  Going solo and going against the grain was a good but different experience.  I learned a lot fo myslef and I learned how much more mental/pscho the hike is rather that physical.  Going completely isolationist would be tough but appealing in a strange sort of way.
 
Duane- shutterbug 

Jeff Olson <jjolson@uwyo.edu> wrote:
Dear All:

I find really interesting that "love" is not a regular topic on the
listserv. So many hikers start the trail with a basic need for sociality -
hanging with others - that the "solo" hiker is really an oddity. I think
that it is the solo hiker that is most ready, and most seeking of "love."

Read the journals of thru-hikers and you'll see a pattern that affirms we
are a social species, that we need contact with others to create meaning in
our lives. Being alone on the trail is a daunting prospect . We scurry
around at home putting togehter the "Trip." Yet, if you go to the journal
archives you'll see there is not one account of a thru-hike that wasn't
social. Not one.. There is not one journal chronicling what it's like to
be alone for five months. Not one thruhiker has cast themselves as a
hero... There is not one account of a thru-hiker who eschewed sociality,
who had the hootspah/depth to hike day-by-day without seeking and finding
connection with another person.

I met a fellow who had no sense of his contibution to thru-hiker lore. I
met him around Dorothy Lake. He was a Jardine devotee, and didn't know
there was a controversy about Jardine's hiking style. He started a month
late, and was about to catch the pack. He was 40 years old and had adopted
the Jardine way 100%. He actually said that he didn't hike any faster than
anyone else. He hiked for more hours. He was walking 30 mile days, each,
and every day.

I saw one of his stealth camps, and it was awful. He stirred up the duff
underneath a tree and didn't try to rectify his impact. He was on the
trail... His version of a stealth camp was a bit out of control.

When a person is in his/her 20s, emotions" always" determine mileage. I
read the journals and if a person is honest, unfettered, unbridled,and
undampend, emotions rule. You don't often see this in the onlne journals.
It's not difficult to do 20 miles a day. It really isn't. What's difficult
is doing 20 miles a day six days a week for five months and not freaking
out.

It's a good thing to freak out. The hard thing to do is just to continue
hiking, day to day, hour by hour, moment by moment - and continue to "freak
out."

I'm damed conscious of what I'm doing... I'm fucking freaking
out...!!!!!!!!!!!! This is what drives us from the trail, from the "Trip."
I'm too damn conscious and it hurts too damn much! I can't handle freakiing
out. I got to leave and bury myself in the unconsciousness of living day to
day by other norms than the trail...

When I hike day after day, my emotions are rampant, wild, unfettered,
dangerous and really, really scary. I can't stand being alone. Yet this is
the ultimate challenge. Can I hike the trail alone? Can I spend five
months alone? The pain is so exquisite, so intense, so "present."

The answer for most of us is, "No, I can't hike the trail alone." I need
the warmth of human companship, the opportunity to say how I feel, how much
I hurt, and to find commiserating eyes that validate my experience of hiking
2600 miles.

I'm freaking and you're freaking, and in our shared freaking, we are ok...
The 20 something person going through this is preparing her/himself for
love. There is no better lover/partner than someone who has gone through
the trials and tribulations of being alone on a thur hike. No better...

Jeff...
Laramie, where winter threatens and spits...



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