[pct-l] re: worrying about worrying

[pmags@yahoo.com (Paul Magnanti)]

>>at one of the Aldha Spring Meetings saying, "Maybe
>>when I finish the CDT,
>>I'll get it out of my system and I'll be able to
>>settle down."  We all laughed, knowing how unlikely

Funny, that is what I am going through right now.

A large part of me is already thinking of the next
long hike. Getting the maps and guide books this
winter, planning my re-supplies, taking stock of the
gear. All the nuts and bolts stuff of a hike that I
enjoy quite a bit. (What can I say, I am a planner by
nature. Enjoy planning almost as much as hiking
sometimes!)

However, a small, but increasingly vocal part of me,
thinks do I want to start over again every two years?
Find a new place to live, start a new job, and be away
from a place I love that is considered home and  where
I known a bunch of people whom I consider to be good
friends. And believe it or not, it is hard to keep a
relationship going when you are gone for 5-6 mos at a
time every couple of years. :D (Hey..we get along
great. BTW, I am leaving in 3 mos for 6 mos!)

Decisions..decisions.

Another big hike is in my future. But after that hike?
I maybe inclined not to consider settling down, but
facing a different set of challenges.

Still trying to reconcile a love for adventure, the
outdoors, etc. with some stability in my life. Me, and
about a bazillion other people I know. :D



>>miss the hopes and dreams that start the process,
>>the months of anticipation

And then there is that...

Mags (thinking aloud in e-mail..)


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The true harvest of my life is intangible.... a little stardust caught, a portion of the rainbow I have clutched
--Thoreau

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